73 Questions

I saw this post on Lindsay’s blog and I didn’t have another post ready to go live so I decided to give this one a go. I also love Vogue’s 73 Question videos so here’s my version.

  1. What’s the best thing that happened to you this month?
    • I finally started my YouTube channel after years of letting fear stand in my way.
  2. What’s your favorite game?
    • I play a lot of Yahtzee on my phone.
  3. When are you most inspired?
    • I usually get all my good ideas when I’m trying to go sleep and don’t want to find my phone to put it in the Notes app or when I have nothing to write on or with.
  4. If you could teach one subject in school, what would it be?
    • This might not be an actual class, but a class that teaches life skills like how to balance a checkbook, information on taxes, how to write a resume, how to negotiate your salary, credit cards, interest rates, etc.
  5. What’s your favorite beverage?
    • Pepsi Max/Diet Pepsi
  6. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?
    • That I am a class act, act like a lady, and I remind someone of my grandma. My grandma was the epitome of a true Southern lady so that is a great compliment for me to receive.
    • (Minus the cuss words. Sorry, grandma)
  7. What is your favorite birthday cake?
    • Yellow layers with chocolate icing.
  8. what is one thing you still have from your childhood?
    • My blankie and my Carolina cheerleader outfit.
  9. What is your favorite movie?
  10. what is something you can’t do?
    • Sing (I still do, but I’m not good at it.)
  11. Window or aisle seat?
    • Window
  12. What is something that makes you laugh no matter what?
    • I live for a good meme.
  13. What does creativity mean to you?
    • Putting your ideas into action
  14. what are your favorite lyrics of all time?
    • There will be an answer, let it be -The Beatles
  15. What is your favorite holiday?
    • Thanksgiving. Minimal decorations and food. Winning combo.
  16. What’s heavily played on your playlist right now?
    • The Greatest Showman sound track. I’ve never seen the movie, but I’m BOMB at singing the songs.
  17. If you could raid one woman’s closet, who would it be?
    • KATE MIDDLETON. DUH.
  18. Must have purse item?
    • Lip balm
  19. What did you want to be when you were 12?
    • A buyer for a department store
  20. What is something you won’t be doing in 10 years?
    • Paying off debt
  21. What is an important life lesson for someone to learn?
    • Money doesn’t buy happiness
    • When I was really depressed, I bought a lot of things I didn’t need or want because I was longing for a just a few minutes of happiness. See #20
  22. How do you start your day?
    • By pressing snooze 24902349 times
  23. Would you ever live anywhere besides where you do now?
    • Yep
  24. What is your favorite dessert?
    • Chocolate cake–yellow cake with chocolate icing (see #7)
  25. Is there a dessert you don’t like?
    • Anything with fruit
  26. It’s brunch! What do you eat?
    • Eggs Benedict
  27. Where was the best vacation you’ve taken?
    • Last year, my girls and I took a weekend trip to the beach. We live in different cities and don’t get to see each other as often as we’d like and we spent the weekend eating, drinking, and just enjoying being together.
    • My weekend trip to London during my study abroad trip was pretty awesome too.
  28. Favorite Disney animal?
    • Does Mushu from Mulan count?
  29. What is a book you are planning on reading?
  30. What did you read most recently?
  31. Favorite solo artist?
    • Thomas Rhett Akins. I love him and his family and how he uses his influence and platform.
  32. What is something you’re tired of?
    • Materialism, racism, hatred. I could go on for days.
  33. What’s a city you wish to visit?
    • Boston
  34. Heels or flats?
    • Flats
  35. Where does one go on a perfect road trip?
    • Blowing Rock, NC or Charleston, SC
  36. What do you do on a rainy day?
    • Nap
  37. What’s your favorite exercise?
    • Running late
  38. What was your worst subject in school?
    • Math
  39. What is your spirit animal?
    • My friends white lab, Monroe, is my spirit animal.
    • If you don’t know Monroe, a koala. I can sleep for HOURS. I should be studied.
  40. What do you usually eat for breakfast?
  41. What do you usually eat for dinner?
    • Whatever my mom or dad cooks. I’m spoiled.
  42. Cooking or baking?
    • Baking
  43. Favorite baked good?
    • Cupcake
  44. What is something you wish you could be good at?
    • Eating healthy/meal prepping. I’m picky AF and lazy. #honest
  45. Skiing or surfing?
    • Neither
  46. First celebrity crush?
  47. Most recent celebrity crush?
    • Eric Decker. Forever and ever. He/Him (it’s late and I don’t feel like thinking) and Jessie are so together and their kids are precious.
  48. What color was your prom dress?
    • Black. Duh.
  49. How do you manage stress?
    • Long bath
  50. What do you do to relax?
    • Bath or snuggles with Windsor
  51. Age you were first kissed?
    • 13 or 14
  52. Favorite fashion trend of all time?
    • This is a hard one, but the first thing that comes to mind is pattern mixing. I love wearing stripes and leopard prints together.
  53. Best fashion advice you’ve ever received?
    • Don’t try to stuff 10 pounds of sugar in a 5 pound bag.
  54. What is your current favorite piece of clothing that you own?
    • I inherited my grandmother’s fur stole and it is so special to me.
  55. Shoes or bags?
  56. How do you know when you’re in love?
    • Wouldn’t know
  57. Television show you’ve binged on recently?
    • Will & Grace
  58. Who do you turn to when you’re sad?
    • Jesus
  59. Leather or lace?
    • Lace
  60. Vintage or new?
    • Vintage
  61. What is your Kryptonite?
    • Shopping
  62. What are you most enchanted by?
  63. What is your biggest strength?
    • Time management/prioritizing
  64. What is your biggest weakness?
    • I’m a perfectionist
  65. What are 3 words to describe living in your city?
  66. Cutest thing on planet earth?
  67. Favorite color?
    • Turquoise
  68. Best first date idea?
    • Dinner/drinks/coffee, somewhere you can talk
  69. Favorite time of day?
    • Sunset
  70. What do you notice about someone when you first meet them?
    • Their brows
  71. What’s your guilty pleasure?
    • Naming one is quite difficult, but energy drinks. Don’t @ me, I know the risk. I live life on the edge, let me be.
  72. Favorite band?
    • The Beatles
  73. Plans for the weekend?
    • Dog sitting
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Night Routine

I don’t know about y’all, but I love to watch routine videos on YouTube and read them on other blogs. Maybe I’m nosey, but I think it’s interesting to see/read what other people do with their time. Of course, no night or day is every the same, but here’s my typical night routine.

I currently commute 45ish minutes to work each day so by the time I get home, I’m over doing a whole lot of things. I like to unwind and not think too much.

FYI: This post is picture heavy

11.) Take Windsor outside. –I live at home so Windsor spends most of his day at Grandma’s Day Care so he doesn’t always need to go out as soon as a I get home, just depends!

22.) Unready–The first thing I do is take off all of my jewelry. I don’t know why, but as soon as I get home and in for the night, I immediately take off my jewelry. I keep my daily jewels in this ash try that was my grandpa’s. It’s where he put his extra change every day and it always stayed in the same spot so when I see it, I think of him and it makes me happy!

33.) Bath time–Fun fact: I HATE showers. I never take them. We have lived in our house for 9 years and I don’t think I’ve ever taken a shower here. Plus, this bath tub is so big and perfect so showers are a definite no.

44.) Skincare–The full routine: makeup remover, cleanser, toner, serum, moisturizer, eye cream, and facial oil.

55.) Makeup–While I wait for my different skincare steps to absorb, I head to my other vanity and set out any makeup that I want to use the next day or that I need to test out.

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6.) PJs–I have a few sets of cute pjs, but I prefer big, old t-shirts and soft pants. I love comfy clothes and PJs.

77.) Blog Work–I write posts, edit posts, or edit pictures if I need to. If not, I’ll watch YouTube or go downstairs and watch TV with my parents.

88.) Devotion–I know lots of people start their day with a devotion and quiet time with the Lord, but I like to end my day with it. I love and highly recommend the Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies. {a new one is starting today and I’m so excited for it}

99.) Final pre-bedtime chores–I can be so forgetful and forget to charge my Apple Watch each night so I’ve started charging it on my vanity so it’s right in my face as I brush my teeth. I also take out my contacts and put my glasses on. I can’t sleep in my contacts and I get so mad when I forget and get in bed, only to have to get back up and remove them. #lazy

1010.) Outfit–I always make sure to have my outfit picked out for the next day. I am that person who opens the closet door and sees so many clothes but still has nothing to wear. To combat that and help save time in the mornings, I try to plan my outfits for the week and hang them on this bar.

1111.) Reading–I try to read on iPad or an from an actual book each night. Honestly, that doesn’t always happen though. Sometimes I just end up playing on my phone. I need to be better about putting down the phone and picking up my book!

1212.) Lights out! 

In Her Shoes

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I’m sure you have seen the sad news that Kate Spade has passed. She committed suicide and left behind a husband and a young daughter. I can’t imagine the pain her family is in right now.

What I do know is this, I’ve been in her shoes. Literally, as show above, and figuratively.

I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression for several years. I’ve spoken about this many times. It’s not something I broadcast nor is it something I’m ashamed of. I take medication and I work on myself every single day. Every morning when I wake up, I have to make the conscious decision to be better and try harder. All it takes is one little thing to send me into a downward spiral into a dark place.

You can read the full post on my old blog here and it goes into more detail about my lowest low. Long story short, my life wasn’t where I planned or thought it would be after I graduated college. I had really high expectations of myself and when I fell short, I was REALLY hard on myself. I would literally spend hours thinking of every way that I failed and what I could have done better to be where I wanted to be. In case you didn’t know, that’s really unhealthy and I don’t recommend it.

I wrote letters and planned to go home and end it. I was in an awful place. I thought there was no way out. Then, I thought about Windsor and how much I love him and how he is dependent on me and that was enough to make me reconsider. I know I joke that I’m a #crazydoglady and that is true, but Windsor will always be more than a dog to me. He saved my life.

After that day, I vowed to never let myself get to that place again. I meant it with every part of my being. I’ve had some lows and bad days since then, but I have never let it get that bad again and that was 4 years ago. It’s not easy. It’s a daily struggle and an uphill climb. I’ve had to reconsider relationships and take a step back from a few because there are certain types of people that just aren’t good for me.

Here’s the thing Kate Spade and I have in common, no one knew. My parents were shocked to learn that I had been feeling the way I had. That’s the thing about mental illness, there are no physical signs. I went to work every day with a smile on my face and said all the right things to all the right people, but on the inside I was hurting. I wanted to keep a brave face. I didn’t want anyone to worry about me. I wanted to overcome it on my own. I wanted to be stronger and rise above.

This is why change needs to happen. She had money, family, fame, and notoriety, and it wasn’t enough. Mental illness doesn’t discriminate in any way. I hate that on days where my anxiety is crippling to the point that I can barely get out of bed, I can’t call in sick because of my anxiety. That’s taboo. I can call in if I have a cold, the flu, etc., but mention anything of or related to mental illness and you’re stereotyped and treated with kid gloves because you’re crazy or sensitive.

Money can’t buy happiness and it sure can’t buy your way out of depression. Trust me, I know that too. I ran up a nice credit card bill in the thick of my dark days because I was looking for anything to give me 5 minutes of happy. I knew I was buying things I didn’t need, but I so wanted to feel something other than pain so to me, it was worth it.

Another issue for me was and is not feeling like I’m enough. I sometimes feel like no matter what I do or how hard I try, I come up short. While reading some of my old blog posts from Louboutins & Lipstick, I realized just how far I’ve come. I’m not that girl anymore. That girl was sad, lonely, anxious, and so lost. After reading some of my old posts, I felt such a sense a pride. I’m so proud of how far I’ve come. I don’t often toot my own horn but TOOT, TOOT! On the hard days, I remind myself over and over again that I am enough. Others may not think I am, but Jesus thinks I’m to die for (literally) and His opinion is the only one I care about and the only one that really matters.

My faith in Jesus Christ and my family really helped me through that dark time. If you aren’t a person of faith, seek the counsel of a friend or professional. Find someone. Keeping in bottled in just makes it worse, I know firsthand.

Here’s what I do when I feel anxious or low
1) Let it all out. I open a Word document and type everything that’s on my mind. I can type faster than I write, but if writing is your thing, grab some paper and get busy. I type till I feel like my brain is empty. Then I delete it and I almost always immediately feel better.
2) Talk to a friend. I don’t have a professional therapist or counselor, though I could probably use one, but I do have some awesome friends, one in particular who has similar issues and really understands. You’ve got to have someone to go to. You can’t “fix” this on your own.
3) Pray and talk to God. I talked to Him so long one night that I knew he just had to be tired of hearing me. I was tired of hearing me. Fortunately, He’s always there to listen and didn’t hang up on me 😉 I got to a point where I knew I couldn’t handle it on my own, it was too big of a burden to carry by myself. I HAD to take it Him.
4) Find the good in every day. Every day might not be good, but there is something good in every day. I heard that phrase a long time ago and it has been a guiding light for me. Every night when I do my devotion, I write down the “good” of my day. It may be something major, like getting a raise, learning something new, making a new friend, or something as routine as sweet snuggles with Windsor. There is good in every day, if you woke up in a bed, in a home, in a safe place, you’ve already had so much more “good” than most.

Kate Spade was an icon and her legacy will live on. I LOVE her designs and almost everything she did. She and I shared a love for classic pieces, polka dots, glitter, bows, and lipstick. She encouraged us to live happy and colorfully even when she wasn’t practicing what she preached. The world got a little darker this past Tuesday, but some people refuse to let their sparkle be dulled. Kate Spade was one of those people. Her sparkle and light will shine on for years to come.


Whether you’re struggling or life is peachy keen, I want you to know that you are enough and it will get better. I know you don’t think it will. I know you think there’s no way it could any worse and you have no other solution. I’ve been there. I’ve had those same thoughts. That’s why I can say with confidence that you just need to hang on. This too shall pass. It may take a while, but you will come out on the other side. It will get better. The sun will shine again and you will be OK.

If you hurting and feel like you have no one to turn to, you’re wrong, you have me! I’m not a professional, but if you’re reading this and need someone to talk to PLEASE contact me. You can email me {{ thehannahhardy@gmail.com }}, message me on Instagram @thehannahhardy, or tweet me @thehannahhardy. You can also call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255.

Don’t suffer in silence alone. You are loved. You are worthy. You are enough.


Sorry if my grammar isn’t perfect or this doesn’t flow well. This was just really heavy on my heart to share my story and my brain was moving faster than my fingers. I’m finishing this at midnight and I’m sleepy and too lazy to go back and reread to check for errors. Forgive me.

Let’s Get Something Straight

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It’s ok to not want to get married. It’s ok not be out there chasing every man, praying you will snag one. It’s ok to be perfectly happy on your own.

When I say I’m ok with not getting married and don’t want to, people look at me like I have 8 eyes. Like I have lost my damn mind. WHY? Is it because society says so? Is it because I’m a female and I need someone to take care of me? Because everyone needs someone? Because being alone is frowned up?

Let’s get a few things straight. I’m not chasing anyone who does want to be caught. I don’t want anyone who does want me. I’m 100% ok with being by myself, I actually prefer it and I can take care of my damn self.

I get the standard, “you’ll change your mind,” “you’ll find someone,” “the right person will change your mind,” etc. You know what? All of that could be completely true. I don’t understand why no one says, “okay,” “do what makes you happy,” “good for you,” etc. I always want to follow up with, “and you know that’s ok, right?”

Fun fact about me: I’m VERY introverted. I thrive on quiet time and being alone. Commitment scares me. I’m only 26, almost 27, so I can always grow and change, but as of right now, I don’t see myself getting married nor do I really want to.

I’m not writing all of this to make me feel better or justify my feelings. Quite frankly, I don’t feel compelled to do either. I don’t have to explain/justify my feelings to anyone. I’m writing this to let people know that it’s OK to be different. It’s OK to not do what society deems as “normal” or “correct.” Here’s the thing, if you succumb to these norms, you could end up settling and setting yourself for a lifetime of misery.

I am fine by myself. I like me. I don’t need someone else to complete me. I don’t let being single or spoken for define my worth. I don’t allow anyone or anything to define my worth. I’m human, I have flaws and insecurities like everyone else. I spent years letting the numbers in my bank account, the labels in my closet, my GPA, etc. define my worth and I continued to come up short and feel like I wasn’t enough. I now know that I am enough. I am enough on my own.

Enough is a powerful word. A word that has caused me a lot of pain, anxiety, and battles with depression. I did a lot of soul searching and praying over MANY years before I could finally admit to myself that I was enough. I still fall short and I have days where I constantly have to remind myself over and over again, but I have come such a long way.

I’ve never had a boyfriend or been on date. I’m sure that may shock some, but I’m OK with it. I have standards, values, and morals; just anyone isn’t going to do. In my opinion, no one is better than just anyone.

Oprah used to (may still) have a section in her magazine titled, “What I Know for Sure.” I’m taking a page out of Oprah’s book and sharing a few things that I know for sure.

  1. If you don’t love yourself, it’s going to be really hard for someone else to.
  2. You’ve got to be ok alone.
  3. Don’t settle. You deserve the best. You are better off alone than paired off and unhappy.
  4. Know your worth. Don’t let anyone or anything influence your worth. Don’t place your worth in being married, a mom, a career woman, etc. It’s ok to want all those things, but you need to know that you are enough right now, exactly as you are.

Now I don’t jump out of bed every morning 100% confident in myself and ready to face the day. Sometimes things suck. People suck. Circumstances suck. Sometimes you may feel like the only single person left on the planet. Why can everyone find someone but you? There are reminders that you’re single everywhere you go, whether it’s out in public, at the office, or in my case, the refrigerator. My refrigerator stays full of shower and wedding invites and there’s no plus one to be found.

I get it. It’s hard. Sometimes, I feel it too. However, I’m very fortunate that my friends never make me feel like the odd (wo)man out. Sure, sometimes it would be nice to have a date and not be the 13th wheel, but most times I have just as much fun by myself and I’m not left worrying if my date is having a good time. My friends don’t try to set me up or look down on me or judge me for being single.

I know you’re thinking I’m a marriage hater by now. I promise I’m not. I believe in love. My parents have set a great example. My friends have found some truly amazing guys to spend their lives with. I’ve seen the positive change in my friends when they found their guy. I’m not completely opposed to it, I just don’t think it’s in the cards for me.

If Mr. Right comes strolling in tomorrow and sweeps me off my feet, I will try to keep an open mind and embrace it. If not, I’m good. I’ve got Jesus, my dog, and my Loubs. I’m going to be just fine and you know what else, YOU WILL TOO.

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Getting To Know Me

If you’re a musical lover like me, I hope you sang that like Anna in The King & I. If what I said made no sense to you, Google can help.

Things you should know about me, in no particular order.

  1. I love Jesus and I am Christian.
  2. but I cuss a little lot too.
  3. I am the youngest of 3 girls.
  4. I talk to my mom at least twice a day by phone and all day via text. I don’t know how she puts up with me. She’s a saint. We also happen to look just alike.
  5. I get my sarcasm and sense of humor from my Dad.
  6. I am a crazy dog lady. If you say anything about a dog or puppy, brace yourself. I can’t help it.
  7. I have 3 dogs–Jack, Jake, and Windsor. Windsor lives with me and Jack and Jake are my family dogs that live with parents. I call home at least twice a day to see what they’re doing and to tell them I love them.
  8. I graduated from Meredith College which is a women’s college.
  9. My degree is in Fashion Merchandising and I minored in Business Administration and Marketing.
  10. I currently work in agricultural lending.
  11. I am living proof that you never say never and that God’s grace never runs out.
  12. Leopard print is the basis of my wardrobe.
  13. I believe in monogramming everything. People need to know what’s mine.
  14. I’m sarcastic and people say I’m funny. I love to laugh and make others laugh. Better to laugh than cry, my friends.
  15. I got credit cards at a young age and thought they were free money. I am literally still paying for that life lesson, but I’m thankful that I made this mistake early in life and can learn and live better.
  16. I deal with anxiety every day. I take medication for it and I’m not ashamed about it. It’s something I work on every single day.
  17. I’ve only been really depressed one time in my life. I thought about ending my life. I swore that day that I would never let myself get back to that place. I’ve kept my word.
  18. Windsor, my dog, is my best friend. He saved my life (see #17) and he is the best part of every day.
  19. Kate Middleton and the royals are my people.
  20. I studied abroad in Paris in 2011. The trip and the people I became friends changed my life for the better.
  21. I can’t wait to go back to London, but I really don’t like to travel. I’m happiest at home with my dog.
  22. I’m introverted AF. I night at home alone is my idea of fun.
  23. I don’t do mornings. I’ve been on planet earth for 26 years and some change and never have I ever hopped out of bed, ready to face the day.
  24. I’m scared of crows feet so eye cream is my BFF.
  25. I don’t do snakes, bugs, or anything that crawls. The sight of the aforementioned will make me show a whole new side of crazy.
  26. I have terrible allergies. I’m allergic to dogs (Windsor is hypoallergenic), cats, dust, dust mites, molds, and lots of outdoor things. I currently get allergy shots and I’ve gotten them off and on since I was 9.
  27. I don’t do the outdoors. God made heat and air for a reason. Hiking, laying on the beach, exercising outdoors, basically anything that involves being outside for more than 10 minutes isn’t for me. I like to enjoy God’s beautiful work through a window while the AC is pumping and I’m not sweating.
  28. I like a waterfront view, but I don’t like the beach. I don’t do sand. See #27
  29. I wash my hair once a week. #blessed
  30. I decided at age 12 that I wanted a Birkin and a pair of Christian Louboutins. At age 26, I’m 1-0. Still holding out and longing for that Birkin.
  31. I watch YouTube more than I watch TV. Beauty videos are life.
  32. I will never get tired of reruns of Friends, Will & Grace, Golden Girls, and Full House.
  33. My 2 favorite movies are Remember the Titans and White Christmas. I can quote both of them from start to finish.
  34. The bump in my lip isn’t a fever blister, it’s a scar. #ifihadadollar
  35. I play piano and I took lessons for 6 years. Hymns are my favorite songs to play.
  36. I’m very type A and organized.
  37. I love to read.
  38. My favorite lipstick of all time is MAC Lovelorn.
  39. Two books that changed my life are Anxious for Nothing by Max Lucado and A Confident Heart by Renee Swope.
  40. I can really nerd out over school supplies. A good writing pen is sure to put a smile on my face.
  41. I did this whole blogging thing before (link to old blog), but needed a fresh start.
  42. I watch Dateline every Friday night. Don’t ask me to hang out. I have plans.
  43. I was born 2 weeks late and I haven’t been on time since. Clearly, punctuality was just not in the cards for me.
  44. I have one tattoo, Phil 4:6, on my left wrist. It brings me peace and comfort every day and I don’t regret it one bit. The only thing I regret is not getting it sooner. You can read the story behind it here.
  45. I plan to live below the Mason-Dixon forever. I wasn’t cut out for extreme heat or below freezing temperatures.
  46. I don’t do the sun. I’ve never been in a tanning bed. I don’t self tan. I’m pale and I like it.
  47. #46 can make finding products that match quite difficult so if you’re a fair skinned gal, you’ve come to the right place.
  48. I’m obsessed with Thomas Rhett & Lauren Akins and their kids. They are #goals for sure.
  49. I don’t like hot beverages. Iced coffee for life.
  50. I live off Monster Zero energy drinks (the white can) and Diet Pepsi. I don’t drink enough water and I am well aware of that fact. YOLO.

I could go on, but that’s a pretty good representation of who I am. I probably forgot something really important, but there’s always tomorrow.

Tell me something about you in the comments!

PicMonkey CollageThese are my people and pets. They’re awesome. They love me even though I’m an introvert and I’m not always the best friend that I can be. They’re a pretty special crew and I’m beyond thankful for them. There are others not pictured, but the love is there.